I'm being kept awake by one of those thoughts again.
What would you do if you knew you had experienced the best of something?
Everything we do in life has a best. The best food, the best sex, the best movie. What if you knew you'd already experienced the best? Would you avoid those things knowing nothing would ever compare?
Would life be as exciting if we were only ever guaranteed the second best, or third, or hundredth?
Of course, it's not like we'd know until the end. Until you've had all your experiences it would be impossible to say you'd already had the best of anything.
But what about more important things than food, sex, or movies? What if you've already loved as deeply as you can or laughed as hard as you ever will? The idea is a bit depressing.
It's also possible that you've been as mad as you will ever get and experienced the worst moment of your life already. That's a bit more comforting.
What if the best happens and we don't appreciate it as we should because we are too busy looking for something better? And is it possible to miss the best because you're already too satisfied with what you've already got? But then that would mean the best you have is still the best, you just don't know better exists.
Sometimes, my mind is a giant pain in my ass.
2 comments:
Thinking there is better out there is a way to keep us going at times. Even if there is better and we don't know it, enjoying what we think is the best is never disappointing. I don't find it depressing to think I'm missing out on the best because I already have the best I ever experienced. Def better than nothing at all to say the least.
I think we've touched on this one before, long ago. Maybe the answer lies in trying to avoid grading things as poor, good, better, best, and instead seeing everyday, every experience as a "mystery to experience". I believe, even at over 1/2 a century old that there are wonderful experiences yet to encounter, and probably far too many heartaches as well. I know for a fact that I've lived my best years physically, and I chafe against that, trying to gain some ground back now and then. I think when we get to old age we will have reasons to remember and smile, days of love and laughter, and times we are just ready to check out and get it over with!
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